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goneawaycomms2020-12-11 05:40 pm
ownperson) wrote in goneawaycomms2020-12-11 05:40 pm
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Agent South Dakota
● Agent South Dakota
fucking bullshit
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● Agent South Dakota
fucking bullshit
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[ He laughs aloud. ]
Well, technically it's still my room, too.
Well, technically it's still my room, too.
[ He kicks back, but not very effectually. ]
Makes it doubly mine. You better not trash it.
Makes it doubly mine. You better not trash it.
[ She snickers. ]
I'll try. No promises.
[ She flashes him a stupid grin that mellows out into a more subdued smile, and she offers him her hand. ]
All that... stuff, I said. I just want you to know it's... I don't hate you. There was a long while where everything they did made me think I did, I think, but... I don't. It's not that I don't wanna be fuckin' associated with you, I just...
I just wish people saw... me, sometimes. Not... me in relation to you. I don't know if that makes sense.
[ He takes it, holding it up, and giving it a squeeze. ]
I think I get it. It's like you're stuck being compared all the time, right? Like you're on a game show or something.
I think I get it. It's like you're stuck being compared all the time, right? Like you're on a game show or something.
[ She squeezes right back, her posture much more relaxed than it was for a while there, tangible relief in her expression. ]
Yeah. Yeah, that's what it's like. And we're so different, and I'm so much more... difficult, I guess, that it's exhausting. Because all of what I am looks worse, next to you, y'know...?
[ She never thought she'd actually be talking about this with him. ]
People who don't know you think so. I know the truth, though—underneath that bitchy exterior is someone they'd really do well to get to know.
[ He grins. ]
Oh, incredibly.
Honestly, you have a habit...at least lately...of kind of, mm...holding people at arm's length? And I feel like you didn't used to.
Oh, incredibly.
Honestly, you have a habit...at least lately...of kind of, mm...holding people at arm's length? And I feel like you didn't used to.
Just gonna call me out like that, huh?
[ It sounds like a deflection, even behind her smile, but she sighs and decides to just... bite the bullet. ]
I guess. Things are just... weird, y'know? Everything fell apart and then we were on our own and then here is like... extra weird. Our teammates all hate me and I can't exactly blame them for that, and then everything else...
[ It started long before the rig, but they're back around people now. ]
[ He folds his hand tighter over hers. ]
Did you expect me to hate you?
[ He had never hated her, even when he first heard what she'd done. He couldn't find it in himself to hate her. ]
Did you expect me to hate you?
[ He had never hated her, even when he first heard what she'd done. He couldn't find it in himself to hate her. ]
[ He looks down for a moment. ]
I understand. It was hard at first, being told what happened, but I never hated you. I want you to know that.
I understand. It was hard at first, being told what happened, but I never hated you. I want you to know that.
[ He squeezes right back. ]
Good. It's important that you know that.
Good. It's important that you know that.
Yup.
[ He's happy to let her sit and hold his hand for as long as she needs to. He doesn't let go, just waits to see when she'll get her fill. ]
[ He's happy to let her sit and hold his hand for as long as she needs to. He doesn't let go, just waits to see when she'll get her fill. ]
[ She feels like she should be ready to build all of her walls back up. like she usually wants to, after showing even a fraction of what she has in this conversation. But for once, they stay down, and she just holds his hand for a long minute before finally letting go. ]
This is so fucking weird to say considering... everything, but I'm glad I ended up here. Just... just for this.
Yeah. Me, too. I wouldn't consider this a step up except for that.
[ That and his newly-minted relationship, but he's not going to mention that in this context. ]
[ That and his newly-minted relationship, but he's not going to mention that in this context. ]
Yeah. Situation sucks but... being back here with you, not back there alone is... I'm glad. I really fuckin' am.
[ Another playful kick. ]
And you got extra fuckin' lucky. I got my brother back, yeah, then here's you, your sister and your best-friend-turned-boyfriend. As odds go, that's pretty good.
[ He grins then, a secret sort of smile. ]
I missed you, but I missed him, too. I'm glad it's all worked out the way it has.
I missed you, but I missed him, too. I'm glad it's all worked out the way it has.
[ He waits, and when she doesn't continue, decides to quietly prompt her. ]
What do you wish?
What do you wish?
Yeah.
[ He pauses. ]
You thinking of someone specific?
[ He pauses. ]
You thinking of someone specific?
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