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goneawaycomms2020-12-11 05:40 pm
ownperson) wrote in goneawaycomms2020-12-11 05:40 pm
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Agent South Dakota
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fucking bullshit
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ā Agent South Dakota
fucking bullshit
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[ Delta nods at that. ]
Even before arriving here, she spent as little time as possible with me implanted after our first few days on the run from her fellow recovery agents. You were right to say that her expectations of AI ownership did not match up to the reality.
[ Delta is relieved that here, at least, her refusal to have him implanted does not leave him offline for extended periods of time. He found that very frustrating. ]
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[ Delta pauses to think. ]
She has not struggled to converse with other people around the rig, despite her initial attempts to avoid such interaction. She has held several amiable conversions, by her standards. However...
You were not yet assigned when Agent Connecticut departed from the Mother of Invention. Prior to that incident, it did seem that they were better friends than South was with any of the other agents.
[ By the time Theta had been assigned to North, after CT had left, South had become noticeably more withdrawn. ]
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That certainly appeared to be the case. Besides that, however, I have not spent enough time in her mind to gather anything else and our time together involved little-to-no human interaction whatsoever until arriving here.
[ That, and what time he does spend there, he doesn't really dig around. He has little compulsion to see more of South's thoughts. ]
What I can say is that following her initial disagreement with North, and those that followed with York and Washington, she did default to attempting to spend time alone.
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[ Delta considers, for a moment, sharing the fact that even he has come to find being as isolated as South has made him during their initial time on the rig... lonely, he does not wish to worry Theta and things have since improved somewhat. Especially now that they can talk like this. So he doesn't. ]
As York explained it, humans do not, by nature, function well when isolated from their peers. Why, then, South seems to display such a compulsion to be alone, I do not quite understand either.
[ Beneath him, South groans and idly bats at his hologram. ]
S'called growing up never getting to be alone, asshole. God, you're bright.
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We were simply having a conversation, as you [ he fills this one word with about as much attitude as Delta is capable of ] permitted us to do.
[ She groans again as she pushes herself up, the sheets rustling. Delta moves his hologram off to the side. ]
Didn't think you did it on purpose. [ She sighs, rubs her face. ] You're a lot of things but neither of you are stupid.
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[ Theta watches her for a moment. ]
You did mean that in a nice way, right?
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I guess? Yeah?
[ She yawns, drags her hand through her hair as she props herself up with her back against the wall and knees up. ]
You're AI you can't be stupid. Right? [ vague gesture ] I don't know, I'm half-awake.
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Be pretty dumb to program an AI to be stupid. Before you even start, Delta, yes, I know dumb AI are a thing and I know they're not actually dumb. Geez.
[ If Delta had a mouth to close, he would be doing so. ]
Why were you talking about me? Fuck, [ snort ] thought you two'd want to do anything but.
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[ Theta pauses, then swings his arms back and forth, thinking. ]
You really don't know what to do with what North said about me.
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Nope. [ Her lips pop on the 'p' sound. She's still not quite fully awake, her guard not fully up. ] Not at all, kid, not at fucking all.
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I think he likes thinking that we'd eventually get along. He always likes for people to get along, even when I don't think it's a good idea to make them try.
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Fuck, isn't that the fucking truth.
[ She almost laughs, but it's interrupted by another yawn. Sighing, she stretches to try and wake herself up a bit more now that she's up anyway. ]
S'pretty much always been a thing he does. Not fuckin' surprised he's trying to hold out with us despite, y'know. Everything I did. The dumbass.
[ The insult is said with one part affection, one part annoyance. ]
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[ Theta stops swinging his arms, moving his hologram a bit closer, in order to 'sit' on the edge of the bed nearest her. ]
I told York some stuff about him. You don't really know some of it. I mean, some of it you do. Like about how he always wants to help everyone and feels guilty if he doesn't manage it. But the thing is...
[ Theta pauses. ]
He was kind of upset I said it, afterwards, but he really doesn't like himself very much. Because he hasn't been able to help everyone he wants to help. But he also...kind of feels like he has to help, even when he doesn't want to. Does that make sense?
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[ She quirks an eyebrow at that. Theta dragging this stuff out into the open in front of York of all people is almost something she wishes she'd seen. ]
Kid, I've been stuck with him for thirty-one fuckin' years. Yeah, that makes sense. He's always... fuck.
[ She sighs, rubs her eyes. ]
He makes everyone else's problems his problem. All. The. Time. Mine, historically. Fuck, he drove me nuts... and he'd clearly fucking hate it, sometimes, but I never asked him to fucking help. He knew if I ever actually asked him, I was in deep fucking shit, but that didn't happen often. He just kept...
[ She makes a frustrated noise in place of words. ]
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Yeah. That's why I brought it up, because he has a problem he won't talk about, because he's always trying to solve everyone else's and ignore his own.
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[ She tilts her head, just slightly, and squints at Theta. She almost wants to ask what this specific problem is, but if North's hesitating to admit it even with Theta, if it's something he hasn't discussed with her before... ]
Yep. That's him alright. Never been able to knock it out of him. Y'know, seeing as I'm basically one big fuckin' giant living problem he kept trying to fucking solve and...
[ She sighs. Shrugs. ]
Anyway. Yeah. People think I have a problem with looking like I have fuckin' weaknesses, but hoo boy. Fucking Drew. His trick is making himself look perfect on the surface to hide all the fucked up shit underneath. Hypocrite.
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That must hurt. Thinking he sees you that way.
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[ Well that catches her off guard.
She looks back at him in return, eyes a little more awake now. Processing. ]
Iā I mean it's fucking true. I know what kind of person I am, kid. I've been a troublemaker since I was a kid. And there he was, all the fucking time, trying to fix my messes no matter how much I told him I could handle it.
I lived it. I know who I am, I know what he's like. I don't pretend to be anything else.
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I know some of his memories about it. The basketball court and things like that.
Do you think if I talked to him about it, it would help?
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[ The way Theta moves is so much different than Delta, South realises, so much more... natural. Human. Like an actual kid just sitting there, swinging his little legs. ]
Help what, kid? Him confront his bullshit? I don't know. If I knew that... well, shit would never have gotten as bad as it did.
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