Catra

[heterochrocatic]

● CATRA
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voice;

[princesspower]

I didn't reject you, Catra.

[ She takes a deep breath. ]

At least... I didn't mean to. I didn't think I was! You were special. You were one of the most important people in the world to me.

[ "Are", she wants to say. ]

voice;

[heterochrocatic]

You always try to take so much on yourself and you shouldn't have to, but you do because you feel like it has to be you. And it's stupid. We could have been happy.

[ Catra feels like she's going to cry again, even though she thought she'd cried all her tears earlier with Saturday. ]

I just wanted my Adora back. And you didn't seem to get it.

[princesspower]

If I don't do it, who will, Catra?

[ That refers to so many things - to being She-Ra, to saving the planet, to protecting Catra when they were younger. If she doesn't do it, no one will. She has to. She has to or people get hurt. ]

I couldn't just go back to pretending the Horde was fine, Catra. You know that. I was wrong to think it was OK in the first place!

[heterochrocatic]

I know you were! I just wish you'd noticed it when it was me getting hurt all the time.

[ Some of the bitterness those words have carried in the past is still there, but mostly they're sad. Quiet. ]

I missed you and I didn't know what to do! I thought you were the person I could lean on and then all of a sudden you were gone!

[princesspower]

I did notice. I noticed all the time.

[ Adora, likewise, sounds sad. ]

And I thought I could protect you. I thought that's what I was doing. I didn't know there was an alternative to the Horde...

[ OK. OK, OK, OK. ]

I'm sorry, Catra. I really am.

[heterochrocatic]

[ The line is silent for a long time. A long time. ]

I'm sorry, too. For everything. I messed up a lot.

[princesspower]

[ Adora is about to hang up, honestly. she half believes that Catra's just left the line up to make her wait. ]

I still meant what I wrote.

[heterochrocatic]

Really?

You, uh? Love me?

[princesspower]

Yes. Of course I do!

[heterochrocatic]

[ Another long, long pause. ]

I love you, too.

[princesspower]

Oh.

[ That's it, Adora? ]

You do?

[heterochrocatic]

Well. Yeah.

I meant what I said.

[princesspower]

Well.

Good. I'm glad. I'm - happy- really happy to hear that.

[ Adora sounds somewhere between cautious and giddy and happy and sad. ]

I know everything's weird and confusing, but... I just want to be able to talk to you and see you again without feeling all awkward and unsure.

[heterochrocatic]

Yeah, I mean.

I'd really like that too.

[ Catra hesitates. She's not quite as excited sounding as Adora, sadly. ]

If you can somehow not be weird, it'll all be fine.

[ Okay that's a bit more like old Catra. The playful one. ]

[princesspower]

I am not weird-!

[heterochrocatic]

You are totally weird.

[princesspower]

You're weird, if I'm weird.

[ This feels strangely normal.

She sort of likes it and it also feels incredibly weird. ]

[heterochrocatic]

What if we're both weird?

[ Catra actually giggles, the sound faint and distant over the communicator. ]

I guess I'll see you at breakfast tomorrow?

[princesspower]

Yeah. Yeah.

Breakfast sounds good.

[ Hearing Catra laugh without also sneering is a nice, welcome change. ]

[heterochrocatic]

See ya.

[ Click. That's the end of that. ]