[ Her breath catches for a second and she wants to look away again but she can't, not now he's there. Her eyes are glistening, slightly, though she's not close to actual tears and there's a little blood on her upper lip and teeth when she opens her mouth, getting caught on the words again but just for a second. ]

Because if I fucking give up then what the fuck did I do any of this for?! Everything I did, everything I—

[ She drops her head. She lets out a shuddering breath. ]