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Agent North Dakota | Andrew Engelsen ([personal profile] bothbarrels) wrote in [community profile] goneawaycomms2020-09-24 10:32 pm

Agent North


Agent North Dakota | Andrew Engelsen
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[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-14 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)

[ She takes a deep breath, dropping her head into her hand for a moment, then looks up and looks him in the face. Really looks at him, the look in her eyes open and vulnerable. ]

You gotta fuckin... hear me, Drew. You sit there and listen and talk me through shit but half the time I don't think you ever really hear what I'm saying. Like...

All that shit in the Project. Their experiment. [ She all but hisses the word. ] I'd get so angry and you'd sit there and tell me what I should do, try and calm me down, but you didn't... you didn't get it. I don't know.

[ She's never tried to put this in words, before, but she's trying now. ]

ownperson: (pb; purple i'll drink to that)

[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-14 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)

And... and sometimes it feels like you still look at me like that bratty little kid from back home. But I'm not. And you know I'm not, just... sometimes, I think you forget that, because you think you have to... to look out for me like I'm that fucking kid getting into fights on the playground again.

[ She snorts quietly, tilts her head a little at him. ]

Y'know, sometimes, I started fights with kids because I heard them talking shit about you. Funny how things change.

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[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-15 12:11 am (UTC)(link)

[ There's a moment of tenseness at the contact, but it fades and she squeezes back, a little firmer. She cocks her head at him. ]

What's that?

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[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-15 12:21 am (UTC)(link)

...I love you too, Drew.

[ And if her voice is a little thick, if it takes her a second to say it and not just look at him with a stunned stare, then it's because of the way the words settle in her chest after everything.

After what Washington said, about how there was no one left out there that would so much as care if she died. ]

Guess we kinda drive each other nuts, huh.

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[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-15 12:28 am (UTC)(link)

[ South gives an amused snort and can't help her own smile, teasing: ]

No kidding. How the fuck are we twins?

ownperson: (pb; purple worried bite lip)

[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-15 12:47 am (UTC)(link)

Yeah, probably.

[ Her hand hovers where he let go, for a second, before she pulls it back. She looks at it for a second, curls the hand into a fist, then looks up at him and before she can talk herself out of it, she shuffles off the edge of her bed and kneels between the bunks, with her arms open. Offering a hug.

If he doesn't accept it, she tells herself that it'll sting but she'll survive. Only, she's thinking back to that day he picked her up from the snow and she clung to his back, about how long it had been since they'd so much as hugged. ]

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[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-15 01:06 am (UTC)(link)

[ She wraps her arms around him in turn, buries her face in his shoulder, and a little bit of the tension that resides permanently in South's muscles fades. ]

...yeah. Yeah me too. I'm glad you're not... y'know.

[ Dead anymore.

There's a little wetness in her eyes that she wipes off on his clothes as discretely as she can. She holds no illusions that anything will ever be simple, not for them; but she never wanted him dead. Even if it took all of this for her to even allow enough vulnerability to admit it. ]

And, Drew? [ muffled in his shoulder ] If you tell any of the others I'm going soft, I swear...

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[personal profile] ownperson 2021-01-15 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)

You mean other than getting into fights with all our teammates?

[ She's still smiling. Her feelings around North will always be complicated, but even she can't deny to herself that being back on speaking terms, deciding to make an effort to work on things, is a relief. ]

Nah, I have actually like... talked to people. Kinda. Helped this big guy down in the gardens one day, that was... actually kinda nice. And...

[ At some point, as she gives him a brief run down of what she has done and the people she's managed to not scare off, she sits herself on his mattress beside him. Content, at least for now, to sit and talk to her brother with the kind of ease they haven't had in a long, long time. ]